Great truths about getting old

When you fall down, you wonder what else you can do while you're down there.

Time can be a great healer, but it is a lousy beautician.

Forget the health food - I need all the preservatives I can get.

Decision made - Right or Wrong?

When I met with my doctor Nov. 19, he said he would arrange a cystoscopy exam and later a biopsy surgery for January to see the results of the BCG treatments.

Since I will need the surgery no matter what the next exam might show, yesterday I called and emailed my doctor, and asked him to go right to the surgery and just it over and done with. That might have been a big mistake but I can't see going through two more ordeals only to have to do the surgery anyway. I just hope I will get through the whole thing OK, and with my doctor I do have hope.

Oncologist appointment

Monday, Nov. 19 I met with my oncologist with a list of questions and things seem to be about as bad as they can get.

The cancer is spreading in my bladder and the BCG that I was having for the last 6 Fridays probably has only a 30 per cent chance of working and then only temporarily. The bottom line is that sometime in either January or February I will most likely go through that terrible bladder removal surgery. If the surgery is succesful I might be able to get back to sort of a normal life after a fairly long period of time, and I have a very good doctor. I guess I will try to work with that thought and be as positive as I can muster. If it turns out badly, I will have a terrible life, but still be alive.

One good thing is that removal of the bladder, prostate, et al, is that the cancer is completely gone and I only have to be checked every year or so. The "cure" rate is 80 to 90%, cause the whole bladder is removed - there ain't nothing left to have cancer.

I am beginning to accept the above (it has been only 3 days since my meeting with my doctor), although I am still depressed and fearful, expressed in a lot of anger.

More later.

Things that children have learned

You can't trust dogs to watch your food.

Never hold a Dust-Buster and a cat at the same time.

You can't hide a piece of broccoli in a glass of milk.

More Things

A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.


Change is inevitable, except for vending machines.


I always try to be modest, and proud of it!

On the other hand, you have different fingers.


I used to have an open mind, but my brains kept falling out.


Inside every old person is a young person wondering "What happened?"

Five down and one to go

The nurse said the BCG started working within 24 hours of the first treatment, so now that nasty cancer has been bombarded 5 times. I hope the treatment is working.

I want to be able to see my doctor on Nov. 20th, and hope for the best, and be ready to deal with the best and the worst.

Thoughts

A Day Without Sunshine is Like ......Night.


The Early Bird May Get The Worm, But The Second Mouse Gets The Cheese.

Four down and Two more to go

Today I had the fourth of six BCG treatments and no side effects, but hoping there is a lot of effect on the cancer! I am hoping and praying that this will work and I won't have to face the major bladder removal surgery.

Tuesday after I got back from seeing the therapist, my doctor's office called and canceled my 4:15 pm Nov. 20th appointment and, of course, I thought the worst - that he had bad news and didn't want to tell me before the holidays. The next day his office called and changed the appointment to 6 pm on Nov. 2o.

I really don't want to find out what is next and I do want to know. Very mixed feelings. I want to ask my doctor questions and then hold my hands over my ears so I can't hear him. lol

Last week I found out that the young son of a friend at work is in critical condition at a hospital, and I feel so sorry for my friend and his 20 year old son. I think that children with serious illness is one of the sadest things. At least I had a long life before cancer entered my life, over 25 years without even seeing a doctor.